It still feels confusing to navigate life without Adam Yauch. Four Fridays have passed where I fight the hurt to celebrate his life and stay positive like he taught me to do. A lot of positive things have happened in the past month PWR2BEASTIES , MCA Day, The park where Yauch played at in his youth could be named after him (Check out this facebook page), and all the countless tributes

It’s still hard every Friday to look at his pictures and hear his voice but it’s all I want to do…

I’m still trying to figure out my place in all of this…the blogs place in all of this. What do I say? What do I post? I want to honor his memory the best way I can. I want to honor my favorite band who taught me how to TRULY live.

I try to be strong. I want this to be a positive place. But even as I write these words I’m wracked with self doubt. I want to say the right thing… I’m still dealing with the domino effect his passing has left on my life.

I’m keep thinking back to Adam Horovitz’s own words “i feel like a bunch of us been walking around lonely bumping into walls.” I feel like I’ve been bumping into walls especially today but I know I am NOT ALONE because…

WE ARE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER